my fingers will grow muscles if i keep up with this. haha. having to update at 2 places at one go.

i guess its time i tell the world whats my new url lah. link me if you want to

http://skack.blogspot.com

i still leave this thing here. for memory sake. haiz.

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soon i will tell you whats my new url. tired lah update at 2 places. haha.

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i went back camp. to take what is mine.


this is what is left...



i totally forgot about the picture that is left in my cupboard.
i was surprised.
i was like eh?
haha.
well, its time to clear though.

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ok here are some morning randoms that i going to put up.

i have this huge pimple on my forehead man. it sucks! my forehead is like the prominent feature on my face and there is a pimple on it. how great. how to attract girls like that? URGH!!

but on a better note, a friend told me a pimple is a good sign. which means i still am going thru PUBERTY!! haha. woohoo. i might be old at age but my body is still young and GROWING!! *looks at body*

and on a malay tale, my mum always say if there's pimple emerging out, you are missing someone. or is it the other way ard? i dont know. its either being missed or you miss someone. haha.

and you know what my late grandfather said abt the best cure even before blemishes where created? ok its found deep within this 2 canels in front of ur face. dont take any of it out but just rub rub your finger in it and then rub it over your pimple. you think i did it? look, its interesting but i wont do such stuff aite? i am using belmishes. haha.

enough with pimples! cant wait for it to masak! haha.



anyways, a usual routine of mine to collect the news paper after sahur. its so totally me to just skim thru the pages w/o reading it unless some big headlines caught my eyes. i didnt notice the front page till i was done with the papers and threw it over the sofa. its my friend lah on the front page of BERITA HARIAN today. super big ah the picture. i was like "EH!! NI KAWAN AKU NI!" haha. excited siak. excited for him that is. i read up on the article and realise he is something that i never thought. anyway, great job buddy. haha

6 more days. going back camp now to collect back my junk. urgh.

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6 more days to my ORD date.
2 more lessons to go.
1 more Practical test left.
2 interviews coming up.
back to back.
urgh.

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this is never going to end, stranger.
what ever it is, dont care what i blog here.
and i wont care what u blog there.

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one hell of a conversation last night.


i'm going to be straight forward to you.
coz no point keeping it in me.

what i did yesterday was the effort to make you hate me.
i dont know it work or not.
maybe a lil.

why i want you to hate me?
you should know why.



this blog is just for you to read.
so i dont need to keep changing my url.
and you dont have to go search for it.
dont search anymore! i know you smart.
i keep you updated if you want to know abt my life so much.
yup.
specially for u.
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sorry for all the words, the insults, the vulgarities.
now you know what is it for.
tag board for u. tag if you want.

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the reason i want to shift is because you read my blog.
the reason i want to shift is because i want a new life.
the reason i want to shift is because i dont want you to read my blog.

why?
cause you somehow are emotionally attached to me.
and i somehow dont like that.
because you are with him.
you shouldnt be emotionally attached to me now.
no more me in you.
erase me off your life.
i'm a stranger to you now.
dont have this feelings for me anymore.

and everytime i blog.
you feel so affected.
its not i dont care.
its the only place i could spill my thoughts.
if you dont like it.
dont read it.
sorry.

i get so tensed when u found out my new url.
coz its a url that i liked.
but you found it.
i'm scared to blog.
i might not blog anymore.

thanz.

see ya in 2007. pls. stay away from me.

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i wanted to be friends with ya.
but what do i get.
nothing.
the only time u chatted with me is to tell me stuff.
thats it.
you even start off the conversation w/o saying a hi or not even asking me how am i doing and stuff. never.

dont give me an excuse saying that you want leave me alone cause i say this and that. i told you before just say hi only. no matter what. just say hi. but no. you keep waiting.

i been observing you. you dont care. you dont bother. and why should i?

and guess what. i deleted you off my msn and my handphone contact.

i dont think you want to be friends with me. just dont turn the table around on me. its you.

i am handling the situation well. are u? dont tell people. ask yourself first.

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got my pdl.
woohoo.
3 more.
10 more.

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i was reading a friends blog when i came upon this entry of hers. this is what she typed, nothing was editted.


Just finis reading a book that i've put off reading for so long. A book by sophie kinsella titLed: can u keep a secret?? . It's a nice book actuaLLy, farnie comedy love story kinda book. As a reader i can't heLp Like saying 'éh dun go n do that'!! hehehe...Like a bit crazy oso i can say myself. This book is good..but hey different reader different taste/opinion.

It's so farnie ryte from the beginning n when it came to the ending part it suddenLy becam sirius..d words they use were not strong but it sounded familiar..

she trying to fit in into lurve, family, frends & werking shoes al at once. Sumtimes lying just to keep the other party hapy even if at the risk of her own hapiness. Rings straight to home..
In a reLtionship i quote " reLationship is aLL abt trust & equality. If é other party share then é other party shLd share too. Its a two way tingy, n u cannot just want to know w/o sharing back in return "

Those are the very basic n the very foundation of a reLationship. ReLationship is not just abt saying i Lurve u n expect to hear the same words in reTurn. It's more then that. And frm this book i reaLise that. Mayb i wun b abLe to put to use wad i've just Learnt but i feeL dat i want to share this extra info..

Sumtimes when we r in a reLationship for too Long we tend to forget why we get together in the 1st pLace. We onLy tend to Look at the big picTure and when we quarreL we Let our ego get in the way. Or sumtimes Like the story character, we Lie. We Lie for the soLe reason that is to keep our partner hapy. but is it worth it? To Lie i mean. A tiny winie lie is ok..but if it's a major one n which will cost é relationship then i tink thats wrong..

Heyy..dun get me wrong..i'm ok..i'm siriusly ok..not whinning or pondering, it's just a re-cap dats aLL..i'm fyne aite..All this are hiccups in Life which made me sum1 different..so yah i'm fyne..

Stttreetcchhh...so yah guess this is it..need to take my medication..goTTa rn..tiLL Later Later..tataaaa.....

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"Pain" by Three Days Grace

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

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i think it would be just the same if we lead our own lifes as we are right now.
ok.
peace.

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failed.
damn.
so careless.
another try this thursday.
pray pray pray.

cuz called.
wee.
good news!
cant wait
so nervous and scared.
dont know why.
looking forward it though

i got pimple!
argh.
mum say if got pimple, i'm missing someone.
haha.
no i dont.
i miss no one.

waiting and waiting.
she sleep already ah.
wah lao.
i should call earlier.
but there was this nice show on tv.
about a kid who was sooo naughty.
no respect to no one even to his own grandfather.
till something bad happen to his grandfather,
because of what he did.
then the kid turn into a new leaf.
so touching.
i cried.
and that show was dedicated to all the grandparents in singapore.
so the lesson here is respect the elderly and treasure them.
make sure they respect you too in the end.
if not, you can kick their butt too.
haha.

singles are the best.
yup yup.
especially when it comes from a unknown band.
today itself i got 10 new songs. woohoo.

wonder what i will do later in the day eh.
hmm.

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blocked nose.
bad hairday.
didnt see the door mat.
nothing to do.
need money.
need work.
argh.
blocked nose.
bed.
phone.
happy.
phone.
ha.
laughters.
no letters for me in letter box.
idiot.
games.
alot of games.
tv.
alot of channels.
nothing that interest me.

nothing else to blog.
bike circuit evaluation tomorrow.
hope i pass.
sorry has.
i going to pass it soon.
tata.

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i realise that 2 yrs with you,
i never did intro you to any of my friends.
i must mention them to you.
not even my best friend i think.
so you have no idea how i treat them.

i aint giving you special treatment ok?
i just treat you all the same like the rest of my friends.
if you want me to treat you like how i used to treat you.
say so.
i will.
i will treat you like the same, like i used to.
but on a friend level?
is that you want?
what do you want?
tell me

being friends with you is harder than i thought.
maybe you just need fadli.
i made you cry again and again and again and again.

i am being a jerk here.
:(
i should be the better friend that you need.
we chat up soon.

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i wonder what happen to me when i had that conversation.
was i myself?
was i?

i wasnt sure till i got back home skating.
i lost my mood after buka with family.
coz dad was pissed with mum for a simple mistake she made that i forsee can be forgiven.
but dad was furious about it.
i wasnt happy though.
family issues hard to see thru.

maybe.
maybe thats what happen during the conversation.
back to fixing.
but this time is a crack.
hope its fixed soon enough.

i had a nice chat over the phone though.
thanz eh.
will continue with you soon.

going back camp!!
urgh.

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i been updating blogger very often these days.
maybe because i have alot of thoughts and feelings going thru my mind and bloodstream respectively.
well, i think its good though.
first, i know i'm dead but alive somehow.
like a zombie you know.
and it somehow will improve my english here.
so there wont be any misconception or any misunderstanding here

anyway, i'm glad that isyah intro-ed Kenangan Terindah to izyan,
and in return, i'm glad that izyan intro-ed me to that song.
it has been my daily those of music.
call me siao when u read the few following sentence.
i wake up i turn to my handphone and play that song.
before i sleep, i play that song again.

why?
its just soo nice.
here's the lyrics to the words again.
sorry about it being in malay.
doesnt matter also because those reading my blog are malay literate.
ha.

Kenangan Terindah by Samsons.
Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang telah hilang
Darimu yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu
Untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

its just so nice to hear it.
it was kind of sad at first knowing that it will be a memory.
but when it became my daily dose of music,
it will switch on my tape recorder and play back all those memories for the past 2 years.
yea.
kind of a big tape recorder right?
can play back 2 years of memory.
:)
thanz izyan for a wonderful memory.

i'm ok now.
chat up with me often aite.
or at least when i say HI to you, you better chat with me ah!
i told you i'm changing and i think i am.
but its too late though.

izyan, a girl that i lost.
a girl that i dont want to lose again.
lets be the bestest of friends ok.
even better than er..whoever.
ha.

we lost trust as bf/gf.
now trust me as a friend.
and i be your superman.
but you know what.
you're always my angel.
remember that song ok.
the song that set our mind thinking.

would you agree that is our song now?
i hope you do.








shit! see lah.
update update update.
now late for bike lesson.
pillon riding today.
ahakz.
i'm sure to get some incident today.
having that feeling.


MORE updates to come.
so visit me often ok.
i cut down on the mushy mushy stuff here.
haha.
i know you people reading it are sick of it ok.
give me till nov.
by then no more mushy mushy stuff liao
unless some hot cute girl comes into my life.

yes.
i only date cute girl.
go to izyan's friendster profile.
she's cute.
so my future gf must be cuter!
haha.
if pretty hot also i dont mind actually.
haha.
dont want fat fat one or skinny skinny one.
dont want young young one or old old one.
dont want to be match make!
argh!

gone

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its already october.
argh.
the month that i so looking forward to.
i'm planning to have this cool haircut.
but i'm afraid that if it might affect my future.
but it would be cool to have such hair cut.

pay is coming.
hope its alot.
shoes.
jeans.
caps.
something that i never get to do for a very long time.
to pamper myself!
woohoo.

i so want a bike.
its funny that i'm not into bikes but more into cars.
but i think this fantasy for bikes will be a short one.
till i get my super 4 maybe. haha.
then i get my subaru wrx maybe.
argh.
class 2b, 2a and 3.
must get these 3 license.

october. october.
then it will be november.
then december.
then it will be 2007!!
woohoo.
parents by then will have the title haji dan hajjah.
but with a corrupted son.
haha.

scary shit man when they go haji.
they will be gone for 1 month
which means i'm in charge of the house and of course of my lil brother
he so going to die
i'm going for training to be a housebrother i guess soon.
haha.


its the end.

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