k.





its settled.




another chapter in the love book.
another level of love that i've reach.
went thru pain.

other people suffered before i could reach here.
suffered alot i tell u.

words are like throwing darts.
one wrong word from your mouth, thats it.
the dart will hit some where soft.

argh.
why.



chemistry. physics. psychology. the love potion.








14 more days to HELL course

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morning everyone. i didnt want to update yesterday cause my mind was shut off when i wanted to update. so here i am after a gooooooooood rest last night.


i met lulu yesterday after i shot many many rounds from the gpmg in camp yesterday. fish and co at changi aiport has become like a comfortable place for me due to my gf. and hey, i'm known as IZYAN's BOYFRIEND. like duh. i have a name and the name is mr bartender's name too. but hey, love the people there. too bad my gf is quiting soon.

*prays hard for her*

when i reached there, i immediately saw her and say i want to eat fries, and there i got it. haha. one big basket for me. thought that basket was only for me but my lulu who was on crash diet came along and eat it along with me. hehe. cant blame ah. the fries are nice. wee...


went delifrance had nice tea break with her. chatted all those nonsense with her i had in camp. chatted this and that. share stories. planned what to do.

then went changi airport staff canteen eat fruits. haha. well, she got drunk on watermelons ok. so too much of watermelon can have its side effects. yup. devastating side effects. *grinz*

ha.

i got my progress package liao! yey. what to buy? hmm......maybe i pay people's utang first ah. i utang alot of people sey. i learnt that in life, when u owe people in no matter what form (ie. money, lunch, etc) you better pay back when you are still alive. coz if not, in life you wont be rich or in death, you wont go off that easily. i'm not here to scare you lah, but this is what i have been thought and lessons i really learn in life.

ok end.


o. i love my baby. baby, i like the way you are. so please appreciate how you look. dont compare. dont worry about being this and that or am i that than her? ok? crash diet is good, but dont do it for one thing. do it for a life long thing. i'll support you all the way, even when you going up the stairs *pushes her up the stairs* i be here with you beside you around you so that we can lead a happier life together. again, love you baby!!

17 more days to HELL course!

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blogger was being a bitch yesterday. was helping my gf to upload her entry but it seem impossible to do at her side. i dont know why but i can upload mine. tried over and over again till blogger won my computer and shut down my pc for good.

i lost



i was being selfish yesterday. gosh. was up with me. missing her too much i guess


will be booking in tonight for the jc visit tomorrow and live firing on the mg for gryphon company on thursday. will be a short week this week. may or may not update again tonight. erm.

pray hard that i come back alive and well after thursday.




got new bicycle shop in my area!!! yey!! can repair my bicycle liao!!! been longing to go long distance cycling to nowhere. cycling good cardio workout too other than running. so yup, another type of exercise that i will adopting soon! yey!





20 more days to HELL week bluergh.

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dont worry. there is nothing with the layout or your computer. i changed the layout silighty coz i'm sick of that pic which is used to be on top.

anyway, i didnt step out the house today. i didnt even look at the main door of my house. haha. i was more bz cleaning up my room.

state funeral was held in malaysia for one of its ex deputy prime minister. well, its funny how they did thier state funeral but i cant blame them due to the fact that they had only hours to rehearse.

i still waiting for my baby to sms me back. wonder if she's back or not. haiz.



i'm heading back camp tml. see ya soon!!!

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ok i been staring at this screen for a long long time thinking how to start off blogging today.

ok let me see. i book in on the 16th April after meeting lulu at the airport. she was darn tired. *pat her*

17th to 20th April 2006
I had GPMG course. a very stupid course that should not be conducted at all. well, at least i got some new weapon skills. after 4 gruelling days of boring lessons and lectures and the only place i can fire is at the bic ground. geez.

nvm. learn gpmg in ps course then i can fire anywhere! muahaha.

21st April 2006
I had COS duty. Practically, the appointment Company Orderly Sergeant aka COS really actually suppose to be Company Only Sergeant. meaning, you are the sergeant and only you will do the stupid work.

i was suppose to rest and relax even though its my duty because almost everybody is out of camp today. no one except me and another idoit. but no, everybody just wants to leave the work to the COS. Why? Why must it be like that? i had to other people work. Such irresponsible bitches they are.

22nd April 2006
I did my 2nd Year IPPT and i got silver. Gosh lucky me aite? its like the last IPPT test i did was like 1 year ago. haha. Well, i do train for it lah to save my butt from OC. haha.

I went for NPCC Day Parade today. Kinda boring, short and lame. Maybe i am too harsh giving them comments. Maybe because i'm comparing it to the army? Look what have Army done to me!




i got news that i will be going on Platoon Sergeant Course on the 15th May 2006 to 22 June 2006. yup2. oc wanted so much to send me. guess he wants me to suffer ah. i will be further away from my hun as the course will be at Pasir Laba Camp, thats like at the west of singapore. gf lives on the east of sunny island. o well, god is testing us baby.

we be stronger.



talking abt my gf. she's in kl right now having the time of her life. maybe shopping till kl got no more stuff. haha. miss her so much sia. its been like 6 days i haben seen her and whats more, i rarely talk to her over the phone this days because she has been really bz lately. :) thats a good sign u noe coz my gf will be a working wife soon! yey! *looks at wallet*

just got overseas sms from lulu. poor thing that she didnt get anything she wants. well, thats where your fussy choosing will need to widen up. i mean since you are there...just grab anything that u might not find here in singapore ah. and i think she's piss with me. haiz. aiya. dont know ah.

elections elections elections. everytime i turn the pages in the news or on the tv to see whats happening in the world, elections will be the only main topic. i mean. cant they like make a report abt it every 2 or 3 days? i mean its for sure PAP will win. i will vote for PAP.

and where's the 'one people, one nation, one singapore' thing that we been singing at NDPs every year. aiyo. dont just say le, do oso lah. in singapore, having different parties might be good, but too many, maybe too much.

i'm watching the 9.30pm news and they have been reporting about it for 20 mins. argh. its so boring man.

i think i end here ah. i would love a good rest after a long week. anybody care to massage my aching body?

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its been a long time since i met gf. she has been so bz having fun and working. admire her lah. pushing her limits to gain the most out of her life.

meeting her soon but parents havent comeback from jemputan ah. they say 1.30 be back tapi tak back back pun.

6 more months to ord. cant wait to sign on police.

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something for you to destress about.

> >Ghost Story #1 ---
> >
> >When I was young, I lived in a deserted kampong deep in the
> >jungle. Every night, my mother would ask me not to go home
> >too late as there won't be any transportation after a
> >certain time.
> >
> >One night, before going home, I ta pao a kueh teow soup for
> >supper. I was late and I waited for the taxi/bus but there
> >was none. I was getting worried as the night was getting
> >darker and darker. So I tried to flag down private vehicles
> >to take me home.
> >
> >There was no one stopping for me, till one motorcyclist took
> >compensation on me and stopped to give me a lift. He was a
> >man with a kind face. I accepted his offer and got onto his
> >motorbike.
> >
> >On the way home, we would pass by a temple. At night, the
> >temple would look eerily spooky with
>
>the dim lights from the
> >candles.
> >
> >At first,
> >the motorcyclist was warm and friendly. When the temple was
> >approaching, the motorcyclist eyes grown bigger and bigger.
> >His kind face turned to a face of anger. He was muttering
> >something loud but was not audible to me. I was so scared
> >that I closed my eyes in order not to see his angry face.
> >
> >Then, the motorcylist stopped in front of the temple and
> >then yelled at me.
> >
> >"Your kueh teow soup is so hot!! It is burning my thigh! Can
> >you please move it away???"
> >
>
>
> >Ghost Story #2
> >---
> >
> >When I was young, I have two friends who were very close to
> >each other. They played with each other everyday. It was
> >like, if you see A, you would see B next to him. They were
> >always together.
> >
> >A loved fried eggs. Whenever he went out for lunch or dinner
> >, without fail, he
>
>would ask for fried egg on top of his
> >noodles, fried rice, etc.
> >
> >One day, A involved in an accident and died.
> >
> >B was devastated. B went to the cemetery to pray everyday.
> >He would go
> >to the nearest restaurant and ta pao a box of fried rice
> >with an egg on top to be offered to A when he went to pray
> >to him.
> >
> >The next day, he opened the box and there was no egg inside!
> >B was petrified. He thought, must be A who came and took the
> >fried egg away.
> >
> >The same thing happened the next day and the day after that.
> >
> >B was confused. So, one day, he asked the chef to make the
> >same fried rice with a fried egg again. Then, he went to the
> >cemetery to offer it to A. Curious, he opened the box to
> >check for the egg. He was angry to find that, there was no
> >fried egg in the box after all.
> >
> >Feeling that he had been cheated, he went back to
>
>the
> >restaurant and demanded to see the Chef. "Where is the fried
> >egg?? I told you there must be a fried egg inside!! You have
> >cheated me for a few days now! Gimme back my money!!"
> >
> >Then, the Chef got really angry and opened the box - the
> >fried egg was inside the box.
> >
> >The
> >Chef said, "Stupid! You open the box upside down. No wonder
> >you cannot see the egg!!"
> >
> >Ghost Story #3
> >---
> >
> >When I was young, I went to town to work with a group of
> >friends during our summer holidays of two months. Being
> >young and away from home for the first time, we drank and
> >smoke like nobody's business.
> >
> >One night, we were pissed drunk and flagged the last bus
> >down to go home.
> >
> >Being tired, we slept in the bus.
> >
> >It had been awhile that I fell asleep. I was awake by the
> >chilly wind. I was shocked to find that there was no
>
>one in
> >the bus, and I was the last passenger. I looked in front to
> >check out for the driver. But the driver was no where in
> >sight. Yet, the bus was moving.
> >
> >I panicked shitless. I rubbed my eyes to make sure that I
> >was not dreaming. The night was dark and cold.
> >
> >I hysterically jumped out from the bus and tried to run as
> >hard as I could to get away.
> >
> >Then I heard someone yelled at me from
> >behind the bus.
> >
> >"Hey! Don't run away! Come over here and help to push the
> >bus!" yelled the bus driver.
> >
> >I saw my other friends helping to push the bus, which broke
> >down while I was asleep.



did nothing ah today. practically tried to beef it up abit on my body. *Grrrrr*

was suppose to go to ikea today. getting a new bed. hehe. *cheeky laugh* i wanted a loft bed so that i can have extra space under the bed but parents so disagree to it. o well, better listen to the old people. thier much more wiser. remember that.

i miss lulu.

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yup. its in the news everywhere. no more bridge to replace the causeway. yey.

today was stupid shit. 20 Machine Gun unloaded from the tonner in less than 20 mins. could have just use 5 guys thats already in camp but no, we all have to come back. geez. how stupid.



i'm going to be direct here. KHAI, i just dont like YOU in my girlfriend's life. i dont feel you as a threat though but its just irritating to know that you know i'm her boyfriend but yet you put me aside and trying to make something good for yourself.

look here. its either you know where you stand or buzz off from her life. i let you decide. this might turn ugly.











MG course next week. will be in camp the whole of next week. 7.64mm round fired from a machine gun. how fun is that. i wonder how does it feel to really kill someone.


6 more months to ORD. Cant wait for the next batch of recruits to come. cant wait for my last events in the army. really really cant wait. hahaha......ord lor...

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today is my 17th month together with my baby!!!
*shakes his own hands to congratulate myself*
it was simple date though. just walking around town. i guess there is a greater date tomorrow. hehe.

i partially sent her to tuition while i took a bus home to woodlands today. Service no 168 was my choice instead of 969 because of the long queue that i saw at the interchange.

took 168 and off i went heading home. it was kinda funny that the aircon wasnt blasting as usual but i like that kind of air con temp. i got a seat and before i know it, i dozed off.

i suddenly felt that the bus was either going over a darn smooth road or it stop. and sure enough, after opening my heavy eyelids, it stop. not at a bustop though but in the middle of the expressway. i was clueless where excatly i was. i didnt know what was the situation though, i just went back to sleep.

5 mins passed and i was still at the same place. i saw the driver walking up and down the side of the bus. ok great. the bus has broken down in the middle of the expressway. i was just sitting down there waiting and waiting for something to happen.

rescued came in a form of another bus. ha. surprise. but the best thing was the fare that i used for the bus was redeem back! so in layman terms, i got a free ride home! haha.

i was like saying to myself, i dont mind another breakdown. pls break down when i am going back to camp soon. hahaha.


another thing is this about ez link card. invented to cut down the time to ask the correct fare and the trouble to insert the farecard into the machine. the ezlink card has indeed improved the lives of singaporeans. yup. just tap and go.

but this concept has driven laziness into some singaporeans. well, i'm glad to see people taking out the ezlink card and tapping it but some are just too lazy to take it out. but, whether is it on the bus or at the train stations, some would just put thier whole handbag or bag over the reader in hope that the reader would 'find' the card.

geez, i guess LTA will need to make a bigger reader for the bags.




some bus drivers are racers. yup. esp those in my areas. driving those bendy buses, they would vroom at turns and everyone in the bus will be grapping everything they could hold on to. i need a seat belt.



tomorrow will be my fish and co session with izyan, the girls and good old hairul. haha. it will be fun. it must be fun..


missyfz has a bf. rabak tak bilang.


i want a mircozen docking station. is soo cool lah. i want i want.

Next monday will be my General Purpose Machine Gun Course aka GPMG Course. yey! dont mess with me aite. i'm weapon trained and i'm trained to kill. grr...

there will be this JC visit this coming month. but i dont know which jc. i wish is ijc or mjc or pjc or jjc. thouse neighbourhood ones ah. haha. *cheeky grins*


meeting lulu tml. cant wait. cant wait. cant wait!!!!!!!!!

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its amazing how politics in singapore is so one way. i mean PAP has been around for a very long time and its founder is still alive ok.

Let me say a few words here about the upcoming general elections. its true what they say in the papers that what PAP wants to do, they will do it or maybe even slightly more. this gains the people's trust in stuff they want to see in thier neighbourhood.

on the other hand, the opposition parties did almost the same thing. but they tired so hard to produce what people will say not satisfying.

my aunt lived in potong pasir and its controlled by the opposition and nothing much has been going on in that area for a few years. from the days i was in primary sch till i last visited their place last year.

i dont want to tok too much here, i think it will very very dangerous. but i just want to say what i have been reading.

o yah....

i wanted to update another political thing. this time is between singapore and malaysia concerning about the replacement of the causeway with a bridge.

i dont know about me mentioning about it before or not but what the heck its a great thing to talk about. as you know or might not know, malaysia decides to build a bridge to replace the causeway.

1 reason of doing so is to allow free flow of the sea water in the straits so that there will be fresh air circulating around that area. another reason is to attract tourist from sunny singapore to come to thier country with the bridge which will look darn 'future' look.

its sucky to know that there is no benefits on the singapore side even though malaysia has list out thier benefits. i mean its true what singapore government has said, why we would want to spend so much money on something that is not beneficial to us? singapore decides to put that decision on hold.

malaysia goes a head with the bridge though but singapore stands firm with the decision to hold.

a reader wrote in the Berita Harian saying that why malaysia is so rushing with the bridge? just to attract tourist? he mention that the money used for thier side of the bridge can be used to clean up and give thier city area a more vibrant look. i total agree man. i mean imagine with the completion of the bridge. so grand so nice. then once u past the checkpoints, darn the city is so gloom.

am i in trouble?


o well, i think i shall stop here ah. i need to book in soon. but i love the singapore government. knowing what to do with the money and win the people's heart. its a good thing that singapore is seperated from malaysia 41 years ago. i wont be proud to be a malaysian mat. ha.

alright. on the way to find the off book in camp that went missing. darn it. which idiot go and take also i dont know and because of that i have to go back camp. haiz.


lulu, i bought the watch already tau! and bad news ah, i dont think i can teman u go beach road ah. sorry. love u

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it was a great day today.

enlistment today at bmtc went fine even though it was a very long day. met alot of people, from my ex recruits to my sec sch teachers. haha. it was fun. even an auntie waved goodbye to me when they leaving SFT.

met the in laws today. wasnt planned. was a last min thing. was god damn nervous lah. i dont know why. i felt so nervous even after meeting them so many time. maybe because this is the first time i going out for dinner with them. the dad darn sweet ah blanja the son in law dinner. haha. i was like in my army uniform ah.

tml i guess will be a rest day for me. the rest for my enlistment duty i did today

going to buy xbox soon. i dunno want to buy which one. 1st one or 360. but looking back at the advert i put up last time about xbox 360, i better thing twice.

getting fat liao. train train. build up the abs. physical test is coming soon. i better train up.

i cant wait to get my new recruits. i miss screwing poeple's normal life and making it into the life that i want it to be

a fellow fren is going in soon. you should see the testimonial i wrote for him. darn evil boy i am.

lulu. i love u.

love you family too. i think you dad will give me his que when he start to fetch me from sft or where ever i am working. haha.

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i think i should do a lot about randomness because i think i update best at random.

let see, today i did nothing much except going to the army forum thing, some projects that we HAVE to see in khatib camp. Encik blanja us after that. that i didnt expect.

met lulu just now. so lady of her to come and fetch me and send me home. haha. hey, its the new era, not only the boyfriend send the girlfriend home, but the girlfriend too will send the boyfriend home ok. well, that will only happen in day time ah.

lulu was happy to see me in uniform after a long long time. haha.

met ben. he again has a new hp. i want 6280 sia. so nice. but who can get it for me ah? can you? dont look back, i'm refering to you. yesh yesh, the one keen reading this. ah. yesh. can you buy for me?

lulu mention its getting soft already in my abs section. darn, no more workout become soft liao. looks like i going to burn some fats and build up muscle. *GRRRR*

going back camp tonight. need to be in camp tml till friday. weekend is like argh. dunno what to do day sia. i'm running out of money and pay is like so FAR ahead. helo SAF, i need the money like NOOWW~!

bait fish can be dumb sometimes. my mum bought fish, that usually is fed to those fish-eating fish, to feed my vicious prawns. its like $1 for ALOT of fish ok. when i say alot is really alot.i look at them swimming around the tank and knowing that there's pranwn inside. but instead of 'running' away from the prawn, they just swim pass them back and forth. no wonder they are called bait or in malay we call it umpan.

brother has been funny sometimes. w/o eating during recess he will lose 1 tyre around his tummy. if he does, he retains his 3 tyres around his tummy. so you will know if he has eaten or not w/o even asking him. ha.

i cant find a swatch watch that i want to get next week. budget is within $1 to $100.

weather has been weird recently. even today, i was caught in the blistering heat at 1.20pm. its feels like 32 degrees out there. gosh. then now, 2.34pm its raining cats and dogs. why associate raining with cats and dogs? haha.

good fren of mine passed his TP. thats his first time taking TP and he passed. Lukcy him. his secret, was to wear red underwear. i was consider buying a few next week.

remember guys, if you have bills to pay, pay them even if it takes forever to do so. and if you owe people, make sure you pay them back as promise unless they say no need too. coz you will never go rich if you owe people.


i told you its total randomness.



Love you lulu even if you have a new companion. :\

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gosh. i cant forget the pain in the stomach that i had last night.

ok let me retell the story of a soldier who can do so much for the country.


few days ago on tuesday, 280306, i got a phonecall specifying that i have to come back on thursday, 300306, for Combat Day. Whats so special about Combat Day? Its a 2 day exercise for commanders, all sergeants and some officers, to recap and revise what we are SUPPOSE to know. All the infantry skills that we learn during our trainee days in our respective training schools will be put to good use in this exercise. How we are going to achieve this? Well, just simple. make up a story that an enemy is attacking and have attacked a village and we are suppose to wipe them out FIBUA style.

i was happy and sad when i was back in camp with my combat load. happy that i was going back to the jungle soon and sad that i be apart with my gf.

i was appointed as exercise section commander on that day. ahakz. i knew shit will come when my buddy, is the exercise platoon sergeant. haha. u will know why.

as the day goes by, my excitement for the exercise came to a still when i finally realise how heavy my equipments are. gosh, when was the last time i carried that load? like 1 yr ago ah. haha.

so off we went to the fields after lunch. out there, we were revising what we are suppose to know for the mission. was asked if to do fibua on a mock up fibua set up and i was like huh, what, eh, ah? i was a blur cock there ah. ahha. but after a few rehearsal i was clear what to do.

as the orders were given and preparation was done, we were only waiting for time to do our movement to the conc area of the enemy.

yup2. when the time came, we were ambushed. haha. that moment of time was the most shameful and funniest part of the exercise. grenade thrown towards the rear of us and what we do? haha. nothing. we were too shocked to react. finally, i realise the enemy was somewhere at the back and right side. FIRE!!!! i shouted. haha. gosh i told you we were like in a real war.

breaching was made and we were on the ball lah. Sir, lets go sir. go go go. ahhaa. enemies were everywhere. blanks were fired at a very rapid speed. from room to room we cleared. there were a few cock ups though. but hey, at the end we achieve the objective.

one thing i always remember was the fact that the platoon sergeant keep fucking me around. i was like what the fuck. haha. i was doing alright what. geez. made me look bad only..

after securing everything, we were declared winners and exercise was cut. yup2. back to camp.

so yah. all those took place from 0030 hrs to 0600hrs. yesh. that wasnt the end. there were debriefs, this and that. so i only got to book out at 1200hrs. and i reach home at 1400hrs.

ok from there. i slept and slept till 2030hrs. and i ate. coz i didnt eat lunch, so imagine how hungry i was. mum cook my fav, asam pedas ikan pari. i forgotten that i didnt had lunch so i just ate.

next thing i knew i had bad bad gastric pains. yup obviously is from the heat and spicyness from the asam pedas lah that causing the pains. i was stuck in the toilet like for a few hrs till i had one gooood press and all came out.

on the bed resting, i feel asleep. think was too tired being in the toilet. haha.

pity my gf i didnt had a chance to talk to her since wednesday night.

draggy entry ah this is.









anyway, today is pentas day. finally the day has come for me to watch what my gf has been doing in school for the past few weeks. hehe. cant wait. i guess this is her last and i will not going to miss it. even if i'm sick.

anyway, a reminder to all. i played pranks on 5 people today and they seem to forget today is april fools. so yah, be careful. if not you get PUNK'D!!

lulu, i love u.!!!!!!!!!

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