great. after a great time with my boo, he just had to spoil me saying that i dont care abt the family esp the brother.

doesnt he remember i was in camp for 1 whole week?

so what if i went out?

dont you at least see i made an effort that i went home before the speculated time u guys gave me? dont you think about how i feel?

dont you?

trying to say i cant have a social life out there?

trying to say that i should be a family boy? doesnt staying home on one of the weekends gd enough? what?

u made my gf feel bad when she did nothing wrong. haiz. i told you to stop smoking but you wouldnt listen. you're lucky you are my dad. if not, i will do the same to u.

you nv understand. you dont want to. you just want things to go your way.

i have a life. you gave me the life.

argh....i wish i could stab myself. *stabs*

*ouch* and *sobs*

love you mom. love u izyan. and no. its not your fault. haiz.

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pics from a simple date with my dearest







got to remember this. ok?





nudity!





yes....its art at its finest.





singapore symbol





yes. its her name. she is the queen.





nice right!!!





love this shot





ass!! o wait..there's my gf. been looking all over for her.



all shots are taken by a lumix camera. hehe.

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a song that caught my attention.....

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"I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes)"

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun
And wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin

(I'm melting, I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while

And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Now

Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
why cuts aren't healing
Learning how to love

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
(Stay with me lay with me now)

You could stay and watch me fall
And of course I'll ask for help
Just stay with me now
Take my hand
We could take our heads off
stay in bed just make love that's all
Just stay with me now

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting

In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me lay with me
(Stay with me, lay with me)

In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes (I'm melting in your eyes)
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes

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thats for u my dear

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dear....

i would want you to watch the music video "Wake Me Up When September Ends" By GreenDay. I finally watch it after weeks i downloaded it. Please watch it.

from
B

those who want to watch it go ahead.

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i notice ppl starting to do this on thier blog so i shall do the same. kpo.

15 random favorites
1. sleep
2. camwhoring
3. blogging
4. hang out at launch.yahoo.com
5. tekan my recruits?
6. downloading musics
7. wrestling with lil bro
8. playing childhood games
9. mp3 player
10.playing with dearest lumix camera
11.being a kid
12.going out with my dear izyan
13.eat
14.run
15.sleep

14 favorite foods
1. nasi ayam
2. nasi pataya
3. nasi goreng
4. chilli padi ketam
5. MCchicken meal
6. mushroom swiss
7. hotdog from GV
8. sweet corns
9. ayam goreng
10.fried kway teow
11.hokkien mee
12.nasi lemak from canteen in camp
13.ock
14.chocolate



13 most-watched shows
1. news?
2. er
3. i
4. rarely
5. watch
6. tv.
7. hmm
8. i
9. know
10.most
11.watch
12.is
13.incredible tales

12 good artists in your opinion
1. yellow card
2. green day
3. blink 182
4. sum 41
5. mxpx
6. the used
7. fall out boy
8. my chemical romance
9. gorillaz
10.match box romance
11.aqualung
12.relient k

11 memories
1. 111104 - got together
2. 070700 - best birthday sabo
3. 160804 - enlistment day
4. 160805 - suffering on the parade square on my first year soldier day
5. 160405 - gone to Taiwan
6. 170405 to 080505 - in taiwan/ a period i miss my baby so badly.
7. the day i got my o level results
8. the day i graduated from poly
9. the day i passed out from ASLC/SISPEC
10.the day i screwed up the relationship
11.the day i really become bochap abt food. oops


10 close friends
1. dearest izyan
2. ben
3. er
4. er
5. er
6. hmm
7. o
8. no
9. i think
10. no frenz lah


9 things you're looking forward to
1. ORD lo!!!
2. the day i get my first degree
3. the day i get my first real job
4. the day i call my job my career
5. the day i get my first career pay
6. the day i get my first slr
7. the day i get engaged
8. the day i get married
9. the night :P

8 things you wear daily
1. underwear/boxers or nothing
2. shorts
3. shirt
4. singlet
5. watch
6. earphones
7. slippers. yes even at home.
8.

7 things that annoy you
1. blocked nose
2. html codes that just dont work which is suppose to work
3. missing those nice tv programs
4. bills that went up soo high
5. recruits not following instructions
6. things are not in place
7. my bro. haha.

6 things you touch everyday
1. my dick
2. my body
3. my hair
4. my hp
5. my clothing
6. newspapers


5 movies you could watch over and over again
1. 50 first dates
2. spongebob the movie
3. x men 1
4. x men 2
5. bubble boy

4 of your favorite childhood toys
1. transformers
2. lego
3. tamiya
4. proyo


3 people you've kissed
1. nur izyan sazali
2. my lil bro
3. my mum


2 of your favorite songs
1. scars by papa roach
2. helena by my chemical romance

1 person you can spend the rest of your life with..............




who else to spend the rest of my life with no other than my dearest IZYAN BABY!! muakz!

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life nv been so sucky.

it really does.

o well. end.

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see what u have done! u made her call u an idiot! gosh. just becoz i'm lazy. baa!!! whats happening to me? maybe i was really darn lazy due to the hours and hours on the hot parade square? o well, mistake made, learned and moving on.

today the same thing. heat, turn turn, march march, nag nag, sleep sleep, laugh laugh. haha.

got to run that stupid tekong run which is ard 8 km sey. gile kepa dorang. after a tiring parade, going to ask us to go run. grr...what they thinking? later this that happen say we dunno how to take care of ourselves. stupid!

i dont care. i will take off this coming thursday and friday. haha. need that break man. maybe by then my uneven skin tone will be un-noticable. haha. hopefully can go shoot pics with my new cam soon. cant wait for my next pay. then i could get my 1 gb sd card. weee. snap snap snap.

my life sucks.

twinkz groupie no more. just want to lead a normal plain life with baby along by my side. cant wait to ORD. so many things i want to accomplish on my own. hehe.

gmail account set up but cant put up on msn. grr....

randomz. tata

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parade rehearsal was a killer over at selarang camp. the sun was like 5 cm away from my face and i really got tanned. ouch. dry skin. uneven tan. grr..things i do for the nation.

got to meet dear today. yey. hehe. being the playful soldier i am, we became kids. haha. she was sooo cute. soo lovely. i love her.

but now she aint toking to me. i lazy lah want to take the phone. really.

sleep. i need sleep.

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dejavu today. yup2. we did the same things we did last week. with a few additions here and there.

watched 'Wedding crashers'. wow. it was nice movie. thought it would be about some punk kids going to wedding and ruining and crashing the wedding. but it turns out that the term wedding crashers refers to getting girls from weddings and sleep with them. haha. so dumb of me. ate hotdog, cup corn and sambal sardine epok-epok. gosh. getting fat u noe. anyway, back to the movie. it was sooo, like mine. the part where everything falls apart. i reflect it to whats happening to mine and its kinda the same. i stood still, kept quiet and just concentrated when that moment of the movie was playing. its just so real.

anyway, my 2nd gf was great. she didnt disappoint me, except that i didnt bring her accesories. sorry dear. took nice shots. esp the fireworks, hug her tightly and witness it together. well, of course along with my number ONE BABY. hehe.

i kinda rushing here. coz i need to go bed. and yesh, you must be wondering how come i didnt book in today. well, i have parade rehearsal at selarang camp over at changi there and Encik aka my sergeant major has given me the green light to stay out today. hehe. so fun. hope i can wake up early tomolo. cant be late.

dear, 5 am tau give me a call!!! pls pls!!!! gone!!!

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i got bored. so went out with my new dear. Ms LUMIX!! haha. so fun.




just took this from my mother's garden



and a cat popped by.

thats it. haha. i lazy to edit pics lah actually. i will put up more aite...haha.

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i did a huge mistake even though she said it was a small one. i broken her heart and it wasnt something i want to do. i was suppose to make her happy. make her the queen of the world. make her feel happy and special. but what i gave her in the end. haiz. i think its not only my wish to not look back in the bad past but her's too. it just so stupid of me to do such stuff. just becoz its out of pure boredom. just becoz i didnt had any other topics. call me dumb. Yes i am. i accepted it. i will.

to my love,
sorry to what have happen to us. to u. i feel like a jerk. i didnt set my priorities right. i learnt my mistake. seeing u cry and fall just like that isnt right in this relationship. its not. i really learn my mistake by ur helpings. u noe that. past mistakes didnt occur and i assure u, the latest incident wont happen again.

u noe, reading this brings back so much memory. and tells me how much i mean to u. i been so unromantic not to do such stuff but i do try my best at all times.

"you know i know that we love each other.
what happens in between will just make us stronger.
i hate myself seeing the pain in ur eye.
if this happens again, i just die.
i love u i love you u heard it before
you are the one the only i adore"

to a lost fren,
i made up my mind. trouble just keep occuring. maybe need a break maybe not. just assure that i am sorry what happen. and take care..

its a sad but meaningful entry for myself. i will remember this.

anyway, on the brighter side. we grew stronger. our love seem to go on but in the different way. different route. a better one? the one with lesser potholes and bumps on it. yah, i guess thats the route. i met her today, and she was awesomely glowing. smiles across her face. love bubbles just floats above our heads as we came closer. and it comes together as we are together forming a bigger love bubble! we just love each other. couldnt bear crying over spilled milk.

we just made out and we started from square 1. like what she said, no one is perfect. and doing over and over again doesnt makes it perfect. heard the quote 'Practice makes perfect'? we wouldnt agree to it as no one is perfect. so we came up wit this, practive makes better. hehe. yup2. pratices in our relationship has definately make me a better person/bf. i couldnt agree more.

ppl of the world,
i bought my lumix liao. model DMC-LZ1. shoiik lah. haha.going to show off liao. er i mean going to show to my gf tml! hehehe. love u dear.

'baby, dont go okie??
stay here and hold me okie??
wipe my tears away like always okie??
and kiss my face like you always do okie?
i love you.'

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i am having sore eyes.

but that didnt stop me seeing my beloved gf, Nur Izyan!!
precautions was taken not to infect her. closely monitored. air con will worsen the sore.

was perfectly healthy before i shared the bed and room with bro who had the infection first.
so becareful ppl if u have frenz or relatives who have sore eyes. ouch

2 more days to NDP. cant wait to see the parade segment. smart specs, officers and warrant officers marching in with pride.

charlie and the chocolate factory was just what i imagined. well, almost. the ending was different, was more actually. willy met his dad again. so touching. hehe.

i want to meet willy wonka! *being a spoilt brat*

i hope u like the new layout....not much diff but still, its new. haha. i noe dear loves it. haha. even if she doesnt, she will say she like it coz she loves me! *so vain*

whats that u say? vain? yup yup. certianly. i am. haha.

nites. and cheers.

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i'm back from camp. i was a devil this week. mainly screwing my recruits to beef up thier disipline. they slacked too much. they do. and so my encik aka my company sergeant major gave the green light to let us sergeants have a full length devils tails and horns attached to our bodies. i tell u, the recruits was so shocked that they shed tears. tears of fear i guess. i dunno. but there were tears invovled. and soon as the torchering ended, all disipline was up. haha. miracles that sergeants can do.

so if u have someone u need to get a good FUCK and get him/her back on to the goood old track, come. BMTC will be the place for that special need. we hate our job and of course, we will hate YOU. RA rating.

went for a short date with a ger. a special ger. she is the most special girl to me ah. makes me happy. hehe. alah, no more suspense ah. its yan!! izyan!!! my baby! haha.

i dunno what to write ah actually. long weekend to follow up. ndp duty to do. haiz. tata!!!

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