let me see. i been clueless what to update these days. serious. i'm actually greatly traumatised on what happened.

ok let me talk abt fasting. day 2 already and its been ok. hungry and thirst hasnt been a problem at this age already. ha.

dad was good enough to sponser me everything for my bike. yup. bike lessons to my bike itself. yup2 i hope i can get it this oct. cant wait to get my own helmet too. i imagined how i going to customise my helmet and bike. esp my helmet with my name on it. haiz..talking abt helmets. haiz.


lately, i've known myself better. knowing me better as in the inner bad me. correct me if i'm wrong coz no one know oneself.

i'm very stubborn. if i can be place in a catergory for rocks, i'll be a diamond. a hard solid diamond. people have been trying to help me. i agreed to it, but i didnt follow it. i didnt listen. if i did, everything would be different. i wish some harder diamond will cut me up.

i'm very persistent. well, i only behave this way when i'm losing someone or in a position that i'm uncomfortable with. somehow, it turns ugly till i sacrifice trust and other stuff along with it. most of the time i do it without realsiing it. so far, when i'm kept at bay, i'll never show or do all this. never will.

i'm very emotional. i cant be in a situation where i am losing a loved one or knowing that someone is drifting away. i will go crazy. wanting to know every bit of stuff the other significant is doing.

i'm very boring. at times, i just dont know how to find excitement in life. maybe because i was the only child for 11 yrs. all that 11 yrs i been spending on my own. really. no frenz. no nothing. only neighbourhood pranks that i played with on kids ard my block.

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interupted by that one single sentence. :(




sometimes, being away from each other seems to be an option that will open up our eyes. it just make one remind or should i say recall of that significant other how wonderful she is and how that last relationship was a wonderful journey. it will make you appreciate how the other one tolerate you when you turn bad, or how the other one cherish like you're a diamond.

and looking back at the path that 2 people take together. the journey that both of them go thru. it was wonderful and i was stupid to not take it but to abuse it. i just hope the path that we taking will meet up very soon.

hopes are the same. but will it turn into reality? the path to the beautiful road in the future. haiz....

for now, i'm need to move on. i have to after knowing she is too and wit who and even though it hurts, i have to accept the fact. for those who are seeking new love or already in love, appriciate what you have. dont go find others when you are already with the one ok?

i'm moving on, seriously but....

but i still miss her. and about love? i think i shall keep it to myself for now. for what i know, the love its kept deep deep inside me, locked.



i end here then. i missing you.







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Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang telah hilang
Darimu yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu
Untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

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Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
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My Horoscope:
The Bottom Line
Don't be afraid to inject your humor and wit into a business situation today.

In Detail
A burgeoning business or professional relationship is gaining solid momentum in a promising direction. Take things slowly and focus on balanced communication -- share yourself as much as you ask the other person to share themselves. This should be treated like any delicate negotiation, so be careful, but confident. Don't be afraid to inject humor into the situation. There are common interests between the two of you that, if brought to light, could sway things significantly in your direction.

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