i did a huge mistake even though she said it was a small one. i broken her heart and it wasnt something i want to do. i was suppose to make her happy. make her the queen of the world. make her feel happy and special. but what i gave her in the end. haiz. i think its not only my wish to not look back in the bad past but her's too. it just so stupid of me to do such stuff. just becoz its out of pure boredom. just becoz i didnt had any other topics. call me dumb. Yes i am. i accepted it. i will.

to my love,
sorry to what have happen to us. to u. i feel like a jerk. i didnt set my priorities right. i learnt my mistake. seeing u cry and fall just like that isnt right in this relationship. its not. i really learn my mistake by ur helpings. u noe that. past mistakes didnt occur and i assure u, the latest incident wont happen again.

u noe, reading this brings back so much memory. and tells me how much i mean to u. i been so unromantic not to do such stuff but i do try my best at all times.

"you know i know that we love each other.
what happens in between will just make us stronger.
i hate myself seeing the pain in ur eye.
if this happens again, i just die.
i love u i love you u heard it before
you are the one the only i adore"

to a lost fren,
i made up my mind. trouble just keep occuring. maybe need a break maybe not. just assure that i am sorry what happen. and take care..

its a sad but meaningful entry for myself. i will remember this.

anyway, on the brighter side. we grew stronger. our love seem to go on but in the different way. different route. a better one? the one with lesser potholes and bumps on it. yah, i guess thats the route. i met her today, and she was awesomely glowing. smiles across her face. love bubbles just floats above our heads as we came closer. and it comes together as we are together forming a bigger love bubble! we just love each other. couldnt bear crying over spilled milk.

we just made out and we started from square 1. like what she said, no one is perfect. and doing over and over again doesnt makes it perfect. heard the quote 'Practice makes perfect'? we wouldnt agree to it as no one is perfect. so we came up wit this, practive makes better. hehe. yup2. pratices in our relationship has definately make me a better person/bf. i couldnt agree more.

ppl of the world,
i bought my lumix liao. model DMC-LZ1. shoiik lah. haha.going to show off liao. er i mean going to show to my gf tml! hehehe. love u dear.

'baby, dont go okie??
stay here and hold me okie??
wipe my tears away like always okie??
and kiss my face like you always do okie?
i love you.'

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